do you remember we were sitting there by the water
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heart hurts, crying like a water fountain.
Saturday, November 7, 2009 @ 9:33 PM
Have you ever felt like the most amazing thing happen to you and you were sooo happy, then all of a sudden, you get hurt really badly? I dont even know why Im crying.....crying for something I never really had, you. I actually felt like I feel in love you really deeply. But before I did, why didnt you tell me that you cant forget your ex. It hurts even more once we been through things and you tell me you cant forget her. It hurts, it kills. I hate my life. I cry for Daniel, I cry for my KYC family and now you. I think I have cried so many tears, its uncountable now. You had me so happy today and all of a sudden it turn to tears. I really felt you liked me but it might just have been you using me to forget her. I always get used anyways....I feel like people use me because I have no feelings thinking about thereselve rather than me. It hurts. Cant you take a hint when i say dont sit with me, dont come with me. If you didnt like me, why did you flirt so much with me? and randomly hug me? and held my hand? Im not her, she is who you like, not me sadly. I dont wanna be your third person in your relationship. I DONT WANNA. I DONT WANNA. I MISSED YOUR TOUCH. I miss all you did with me today. Ill treasure it deep inside my heart, because I know it will never happen ever again. Did you know, so many people said we make a cute couple? Why do I bother even telling you? I have to committ, I kinda used you....kinda not. I used you to make daniel jealous, I guess. Im sorry. I guess this is the shit that I get in return. Maybe I deserve it. Once these happen, I feel negative about myself. DIE DIE DIE? because of stupid LOVE LOVE LOVE. I give up on you. I should have believed Irene when she told me about how you'll hurt me. MY HEART HURTS SOOOOO MUCH. I THINK ITS RIPPING.....MELTING. I dont wanna make you feel bad. I just wanna tell you this to make me have less tears. I dont wanna have nothing to do with you. I do still like you no matter how much I deny it. I needa tell myself, your not worth it. I HAVE TO STOP CRYING. I just hope I dont cry when I see you. Goodbye....
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Someone changed my life. He would make me breakfast when I'm still asleep. He would hold my hands and dance with me. He would drive me somewhere and the both of us would be
watching the stars. He stands out from the rest. He doesn't judge me by the way I talk, laugh, move or wear. He loves me just the way I am and I adore him for who he is.
